He stood there; just gazing into her eyes.
to him, it was as if there’s a whole different world behind those eyes…
pain in his back now almost unbearable
answers to his unspoken questions just rolling around in his mind…
god damnit i shouldn’t be explaining this
he sighs… he has to focus now…
now not then
“everyone gets to this point” nervously he looks around…
distractions everywhere…
focus ,focus focus…
“ups and downs…
evidently honeymoon is over,
here comes the hard part,
the part that actually matters!”
words playing around on his tongue like a content pig… just not wanin to get out…

“no one’s happy all the time… it’s getting thorough those unhappy times that matter… ”
What if she’s never happy…
the song… something about that song…
keep the heels down… i shall remember
his thoughts scattered in the universe of his mind… as lost as always.
smell of her perfume distracts him momentarily.
he sure is gonna miss it…
focus, focus , focus… just this once
“i’m not perfect, neither are you!” he clears his already clear throat.
“the rest is all up to you” distractions everywhere, a stain on his shirt grabs on eventually.
his answers in front of him, they always are.
sometimes he just decides not to see them.
why am i explainin this?
again ,again, again
Something about the damn song!
he looks at her face, her jaws moving now. looks closer, her lips also moving.
Words coming out, but he just can’t hear them!
Speak lauder damn it!
She’s talking, putting a sound to the words already twirling on his mind.
But he’s now 7 again. Playing with the snow, on the rooftop of that 50 years old building…
his mom calling but he’s just not there anymore…

Perhaps she was right…
there are alternate dimensions…
in one of which he was there…
standing … staring… playing
then but not now… not here