hi
i spoke to serban after 5 years
maybe even 6 … not too sure
he got his phD in philosophy
stayed 2 years unemployed looking for a job
gave up the search and studied law
he graduated with a  bachelor of law just in February
he’s planning to find a job in law
he considers this sequence of his life as failure
i told him to look at it as mere adventure
but who am i to give the man advice?
he’s probably around 65  …not too sure
he told me he wouldn’t advice anyone to live like this
in pursuit of knowledge
not too sure if his purpose was to learn or to make money out of this knowledge
he told me to specify and specialize
i didnt understand what he means , i thought he meant career wise
we said we’ll keep in touch

i talked to Hoss just a bit after
he was trying to put out his laundry on the rope in the garden
we talked for a bout an hour
topics varied from his background to his current status then his plans
he then asked about me
and i discovered something tonight
felt like a light bulb lighting up in my head just like cartoons
and funny thing is , i knew this before tonight but i never realized
i needed these two people to remind me and make me understand
i just need to focus
i’ve had no passion … no determinism for anything lately
that’s how everything got fucked up
that’s why i’ve become lost
i just need to focus
and i need to limit my exposure to the outside
bye