oh come on! give me a break, i held up my end of the bargain! or atleast i thought i did! or is it just part of the plan? the big plan you supposedly have laid out for all of us!? how the fuck is this fair, you know what? fuck that plan! can’t we just for once get what we want? what about me? what about me? what about me? and fuck me too , cause i just want too much , don’t i? what is it that we are looking for? what is it that keeps us going? i’m off that track , i am further than i thought , rnt i? then fuck me too!

 I am nobody; I have nothing to do with explosions.
I have given my name and my day-clothes up to the nurses
And my history to the anesthetist and my body to surgeons.
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The tulips are too red in the first place, they hurt me!